To know or not to know?

Have you ever wondered why things work out the way they do? I mean sometimes the worst situations eventually flip into something amazing, but you never ever would have dreamed that the situation would have worked out the way it did. I mean how are those things orchestrated? It’s crazy to try and wrap my head around the idea that every single thing I do and every single thing that the other six billion people on this planet do have dozens of ripple effects and consequences, but also that all those things that happen, happen for a specific reason. We only have so much control over what happens right? So then what about all the things that happen which we can’t control and are supposedly ‘chance’ or ‘luck’? If everything happens for a reason, then there shouldn’t be such things as fate, chance or luck. There has to be a master plan that has everything worked out for the future and that knows everything. Many are the days that people wish they could see and/or change their master plan, but if you think about it, that master plan is what shapes you and those around you into who you are today. So that wouldn’t exactly be a good idea now would it?

            But boy life would be a lot less stressful if only we knew the future and how everything turned out. To be honest, I don’t think I would ever want to know the master plan. Such good things would be ruined if one knew everything and how everything worked out. The gender of a newborn baby, life’s most beautiful and precious gift could no longer be such a wonderful surprise. No child or adult would ever experience the thrill and the joy of a surprise birthday party where their friends and family express their love and appreciation for the birthday boy or girl. No boyfriend or husband could surprise their girlfriend or wife with roses on their anniversary either!

            Really the adventure of discovering life and the excitement of figuring out who you are is suddenly stolen and discarded, and I don’t think I would really be able to live life like that. It would be such a boring way to spend everyday looking forward to what you already know for the next fifty years. So while I may wonder why things work out the way they do and I don’t understand, I really don’t want to understand. I want to keep life exciting, mysterious and yeah I suppose I want life to be a little stressful. We can’t live a perfect life now can we? Nope we can’t so why not have some fun with life to balance out the stress!

Changing Scenery

So it is almost summer vacation, all the highschool students are stressed out of their minds working frantically to get ISU projects done, studying for final exams and trying to line up a summer job, all while they are antsy for school to be out for the summer.
Me personally, I feel like I am being pulled in a bajillion different directions all at once, and expected to be elasticwoman in accomplishing everything. ISU's, studying, scholarships, OSAP applications, course selection, residence, family, sports, friends, homework. My favourite line? Only ___ more days.
But i prefer this stressful place, because it's a much more managable place than where I was 2 weeks ago. I didn't know if I was returning to highschool, if I was going to University, what program I needed to be in. I had no idea what was going on with my life. But like always despite my doubts and fears, God came through once again.
He cleared my vision and my path to show me a glimpse of his plan, just enough to show me where and what life holds for me in the next while. Of course like always, his plan is waaaaaay different from mine, but go figure. Life still isn't fully set up for me but when has it ever been? I know where I am accepted to for school, but I haven't heard of where I'm living in the fall, how I will pay for this expensive schooling or anything like that! But I'm taking baby steps in learning to have faith and believe in what he has planned because obviously he knows whats happening.
No I'm not going for nursing like I thought I should be, but maybe it's not what would suit me best seeing as how I struggle in Chemistry and Math. Maybe this Social Work program will teach me how to reach out to people, to council and aid those who need it most. This is still a very useful skill to have in a tradgety stricken country!! Who knows what's in store??
My course now in life is pass my courses to the best of my ability, work hard all summer to help pay for school, and in the fall life will take a pretty sharp turn as I head off to University. Thunder Bay and Lakehead University here I come for Social Work!! That's a pretty different route then what I had planned that's for sure.
All I know for certain is that my scenery is changing in countless ways, and all I am focused on for the short term is making sure I actually pass math class and making it to summer vacation. I'm trying my hardest to trust God's plan will all work out for me and that HE is the one who knows best, not me. Who knows? Maybe this change in scenery will be an adventure of a life time.