One week. That's all that's left of my normal life of living with the same parents and family for the past 18 years. In 7 days I will be leaving for good, out living life based off of the experience and lessons learned in my 18 years of life. It's really kind of scary to think about to be perfectly honest. I mean who will make sure I get up for class? Who will keep the fridge stocked and remind me that eating is actually important even when you aren't hungry? Who will remind me that my laundry needs to be done or changed from the washer to the dryer? Who will basically raise me? Well, that's the funny thing. I've been raised for 18 years, now it's time to put that all to use on my own. I'm done being 'raised' and now I have to live life as an adult.
Luckily I am an independent person by nature and have no fear of leaving home whatsoever. There is no anxiety in my gut that is making me second guess my independence in going so far away to Thunder Bay. But then again is it just that reality hasn't set in yet? Will it finally hit me to the point of homesickness the day after my parents fly home? I try not to give myself time to worry about that, and hope that it won't be an issue.
But there is one issue I have been struggling with lately, and that is the fact that I am saying goodbye to so many people who mean so much to me. I mean yes of course we say that we will see eachother at Christmas, but what if heaven forbid weather grounded my plane or some tragic accident occurs and I don't ever get to see the people I love so much and that I left behind ever again? I hate to think that I won't be seeing these wonderful people everyday like I have been for years. It is just so weird that my best friend won't be giving me her amazing hugs, or my little brother won't be bothering me for the TV remote anymore.
This is such a huge transition in life, and I still haven't quite figured out how to react to it. I know that I will tackle it head on like I tackle every challenge in life, but I don't know what that includes yet. I will no longer be surrounded by my community in making my decisions on how to tackle things either, so I am making all these decisions on my own as well. It is deffinetly a weird idea to dwell on, that's for sure.
But to any friends or family reading this, just know that I love all you guys, and that you will all always hold a very special piece of my heart. I'll make sure to remember all of you as I start this brand new adventure with Goodbyes.
